Pantheism and Mosquitos

Pantheism and Mosquitos: Practice Vs Theory

I am theologically a theist but, practically speaking, often apply my belief system in a pantheist manner. For a couple of years, I’ve been trying to figure out how to work mosquitoes into my pantheist practice. Ok, I know it is funny (and I like being funny), but it is also true.

I’ve no theoretical problem with mosquitoes being the Goddess. It is practically speaking that I am stumped. And I don’t have much use for theory without practice.

I suffer from Skeeter Syndrome. For example, today, mosquito bites at my elbow caused a single swelling that is five inches across and quite high.

Francesca De Grandis, 2013

Francesca De Grandis, 2013

For me, being fed by the Divine requires being in the moment. God is now. When I try to escape the now, I might leave myself behind. When I look for solutions in some faraway place, well, as they say, there’s no place like home. The now is where I have to find metaphysical home.

As a pantheist, I believe all of self is a weave, all of existence is a weave.

I also think pantheism implies a divination system: Every particle of the universe, every moment and being in my day, can be read for guidance. Applying my pantheist theory sometimes requires 1) watching for that guidance 2) examining the weave of the moment for a weave of meaning 3) acting on what I discover.

I’m about to have oral surgery. There are a myriad of reasons that I am far more likely to have complications from a simple surgery than most folks are. I’m doing everything I can to prepare really well for surgery.

Looking at the swollen arm, it occurred to me: Mosquito is God. Oh my God (heh), mosquitoes are trying to help me with the surgery, perhaps.

I started wondering about the root cause of extreme allergic reactions to mosquito bites. What exactly about me makes me so allergic to the bites? Holistically speaking, this allergy might not be isolated. Perhaps there’s some deficiency in me as a whole that causes the allergy? Is it a deficiency that, taken care of, would make me do better with surgery?

I researched this question online, to no avail. Then I called an herbalist friend. She had no insights.

I called another friend, Susun Weed. Though rushing to cook dinner, she kindly gave me a quick ‘n’ dirty answer (adding that I could get a full answer through her radio show. Her answer was hurried, so I hope I understood it correctly; if you want to correct me, please do). Susun said I have an “inflammatory response,“ which is caused by eating foods that cause inflammation. She told me to stop eating pepper in all forms. She said I should cut down on stimulants like coffee and ginger, and to eat anti-inflammatory herbs, eg linden, comfrey leaf, and marshmallow root.

Web of Life, silk hand painted altar cloth, Francesca De Grandis

Detail from Web of Life, silk hand painted altar cloth, Francesca De Grandis

Ah, the weave! Her choice of examples was synchronistic. Though I do not drink coffee, I’d started using peppercorns and ginger again, last year, after a few decades of neither. Needless to say, they’re banished from my diet again.

A few days later, hoping for more lessons from Mosquito, I realized I often get bit at my joints. I thought, “Hmm, joints are points of connection…My joints also swell…Swelling is like blocked energy…How am I blocking my inner connection of all my aspects?…How am I blocking my connection to friends or community or cosmos or god?” I will not list the answers I came up with, bc this post is twice as long as I had hoped.

The next few days, I received other lessons from Mosquito. In other words, I’m one of those people who mosquitos adore. Despite my best efforts, I can walk out the door and have fifty bites within ten minutes. Take my allergic reaction into account, and it adds up to a lot of opportunities for learning.

I’m not the only person who tunes into the moment or life’s synchronicities to obtain Divine guidance. But this particular incident excited me because I had woven various aspects of my pantheist world view—god is in the now, all of self and life is a weave, the weave of the moment is divination, to name a few—with yet a second weave of practical application: analysis of the bug-induced swelling, a holistic view of my body, mindfulness about the surgery, research online, and so on.

The incident is not unusual for me. So why did I write all this? Do i think my accomplishment so superior to any of yours that i had to show it off? No.

Here’s the thing. The moment to moment down-to-earth acts of a truly (aka actually applied) integrative life are a rapid fire, complex weaving of all one’s aspects, woven yet again in rapid-fire complexity with the external environment. Sharing a single moment of it could take a month of writing.

The event about the mosquito is one such event, expect that, for a change, it can be shared fairly easily! I will have spent only eight hours ballpark writing this. Even though i am oversimplifying it, it still works well enough for my purposes:

1) I want to share my life. Writing this allows me to “shout” my excitement at finally seeing dang awful Mosquito as god, and about possibly doing better after a possibly dangerous surgery that has had me scared. I also want to share the accomplishment! I am proud of and delighted by my weaving of so many things, including following through on them so practically. (The weave is incomplete without practical follow through) 2) As a teacher, I stress the importance of application of pantheism principles, as opposed to just knowing the theory. Practical application of theory is often misunderstood as just creating more theory, or teaching the theory to others. I’ve learned that examples are often a great way to make one’s premises clear. My story gives examples, in one (albeit long) post. 3) I want to walk my talk; the pantheist principles mentioned above are all things I am teaching right now. My mosquito story affirmed to me that I do walk the walk. 4) When we tell our stories, its details might help others more than any theory. The details per se might not be solutions or otherwise useful info in themselves, but they imply massive amounts of info. Massive.

I hope you post a story of your own below.

Suggestion: Do you have a challenge or opportunity that you need guidance about? Observe the weave of events happening around you right this minute. Are they a mirror of you? Do they offer guidance? Imply suggestions? Act as role models?

4 thoughts on “Pantheism and Mosquitos

  1. Oh, Francesca. I can relate to this all too well. I too am a Mosquito Magnet.

    And I too tend to have massive reactions that swell and sting for days. Sometimes it feels like a cruel joke:  I need to be out in the natural world for my sustenance, but the natural world also needs me for its sustenance. And as a pantheist focused on the interweaving of life, I appreciate that reciprocity, except that the overwhelming sensory experience of the stinging draws all of my attention away from the nourishing sensory feeling of oneness that I need.

    I’m in a time of shifting in my life, though, with more freedom to be in Nature than I have had in years. So my relationship with Mosquito may also evolve. it will be interesting to see how this unfolds this summer.

    I do love your focus on the interweaving of life.  (And the shoutout to Susun Weed, a wonderful advocate of close relationship with one’s local biological neighborhold.)

    • Hi, Felicia, thank you so much for sharing your own story, though I am sorry that you have such difficult stuff to deal with.

      I am glad to hear someone relate to my story.

      It has been a very wet spring. While this means everything is green and lush, it also means the mosquito population is worse than ever here. To the point that, the past two days, I was trapped inside most of the day. This has never happened before in spring.

      As a shut in whose travels are mostly between the stars, in my own yard, or along the road by my house, and who is shut in even more during the long hard winters here, I was horrified that I cld not go out. I can only endure so much time shut inside! Usually, I live outside except in winter: eating, doing pt, typing, everything. So, today, I am getting some mechanical mosquito repellents!!!! And your input motivated it! Thanks!!!!!!!!!!

  2. Hi, Francesca, I’m sorry it took me so long to get back to you…family responsibilities have a way of absorbing all if my time and attention.

    I’m so glad to have inspired you! And I’m curious about your mechanical insect repellents – please let me know how they work out. I could really use a mosquito repellent that actually works (communication with God notwithstanding) :-)

    • Hiya! Well, I misspoke a bit when I said I was going to get a mechanical repellent. I’d already researched them a fair amount and found nothing. What I meant to say is that I was going back to the research and that I was really willing to take care of myself that way.

      I still found nada. There are some pricey ones, but I do not want to risk that much money on something that might not work. So I am just trying some new sprays to apply to my body and some mosquito incenses. I am waiting for them to arrive.

      Let me know if you find anything. For years, what has worked mostly for me is a homemade spray made with water and various essential oils, but it has to reapplied every 15 min, at least in my case. I also keep a deet spray for rare occasions.

      But this year, the Mosquitos are not just out at night, they are at me a lot of the day! Argh! Mosquito God, give me a break! If I learn to be more patient and compassionate with all the incredibly annoying people who I dubbed mosquitos ten years ago, will you stop biting me ALL DAY LONG? I am so itchy!

      Felicia, thanks for coming back to post, cool!

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